On Tuesday, August 15, only one day after I found out that I was pregnant, I started to feel like I was drowning in secrets and snacks. One of these things is far better to drown in than the other.
When I got up at 5:10 that next morning to get ready to teach my 6 am yoga class, I felt drained, and a little woozy. I ate a couple of Cheerios, packed a little Ziplock bag with another handful of Cheerios and strawberries, chugged some water, and rode my bike to the studio. The fresh air felt surprisingly amazing, sort of refreshing. Once at the studio, I did a little breathing exercise to calm down my stomach, and get my body feeling right again. And I made it through class without a hitch.
After teaching, I was determined to stay and practice. In fact, I am determined to practice as often as possible throughout this pregnancy. Since I had a half an hour between my class and the next class, I had a few more Cheerios, chugged some more water, and did a little deep breathing. I am proud to say that I made it through a pretty tough class, even managed to handstand and chin stand throughout my flow . The only issue was that I had to take more breaks than usual and at one point when I felt a little green, I had to make a mad dash out of the room. I kept wondering if anyone had noticed.
I had been waffling back and forth all morning about whether I should just tell Liz and Nicci the news; it was hard enough to have to lie to them about my headache the day before and I felt weird keeping this giant secret from them. I figured they were going to start to notice and wonder anyway. After class, a few friends were still lingering, so I waited until they all left to tell Liz and Nicci. I knew it was for the best. Plus, Liz basically already knew. I didn’t even have to finish my sentence, she blurted out, omg you’re pregnant! They were both excited and happy for me and it felt nice to be able to tell someone. Phew. I hate secrets.
A few hours later, the lightheadedness and nausea overtook me and I had to lie down for a little bit. I used the time to do some research on the types of foods I should be eating in an effort to help myself feel better. I found an article on 13 foods to eat when you’re pregnant and also learned that I should probably start eating more chia seeds, berries and mangoes to make sure I am getting enough omega 3’s in my diet (hard to do for vegetarians who don’t eat salmon or take fish oil supplements!). I promptly sent both articles and a grocery list to Casey.
Later than afternoon, Robyn texted to see if I wanted to run. I had been feeling pretty good and wanted to keep moving and keep as much of my routine intact as possible so I said yes. We were running, catching up on the week, but my mind was all over the place. I couldn’t help but feel kind of guilty and strange for keeping this secret from her. It was haunting me. It was like this huge thing in my life that I was just not telling her. And I couldn’t take it anymore. Eventually, somewhere on the Skidmore Bluffs, I just blurted it out. I felt like it was too hard not to tell her what was really going on. Of course she was excited for me and also a little shocked.
After that I kept thinking to myself, when to tell the parents?
Did I mention how much I hate secrets?
Stay sweaty friends,